Is anything really unhealable? There have always been cases of an individual overcoming every possible terminal illness through their own deep journey of transformation. This does not constitute a cure, as it is not repeatable. However I have spent many years studying what makes each miraculous healing work, and more importantly, all that stops it from working. It is the latter we need to master if we are to really heal. 

1)      Death Wish 

As a result of constant frustration and failure, one falls into apathy. When this is severe, one gives up on life. Later, one may seek new goals and try to move forward in life, but there is always this apathy and expectation of failure that holds them back. When there is no hope of finding success and happiness, a person just wants to die. This may be hidden under all kinds of reasons to live, usually family they do not want to abandon, but as long as the death wish remains hidden in the subconscious, it manifests a way to die. This is most often through terminal illness. 

Most people on a healing journey realise the importance of emotions in healing. Each illness will have various suppressed emotions that need to be brought out and resolved.

With terminal illness, there is a death wish, as well as other emotions and traumas that are part of the individual illness. Once a person faces that death wish and releases all the apathy and hopelessness associated with their failures, the illness changes. It is no longer terminal, and they have more time to work through all their other suppressed emotions and traumas until they are fully healed. 

The difficulty lies in the amount of apathy they will feel as they work through the death wish: they just want to give up. The trick is to feel that fully. Feel all the apathy, really feel like giving up. All you have to do is feel. It will all pass eventually. Therapists are always ready to work with juicier emotions such as fear and anger, but no-one seems to be able to handle the heavier emotions of apathy and depression, yet these are the most debilitating emotions and need to be released first. The secret is to just feel it until it passes; don’t fight it.

 

2)      The Shadow 

The shadow holds everything we deny about ourselves, and works to bring those things to our consciousness so that we become whole. Those things we do not own always come at us from the outside, through the people closest to us. Shadow is not all negative, as we deny positive aspects of ourselves too. For example, if you deny your anger, you will be surrounded by angry people. If you deny your creativity, you will be surrounded by creative people. This produces envy. Whenever you feel envy, it is a  pointer to the positive aspects  of your shadow.

It is not the shadow that is the problem, but our unwillingness to embrace it. The real problem is the ego, keeping us separate by wanting to think we are better than others, instead of seeing them as reflections of ourselves which help us see ourselves. If we fight with all those who press our buttons, instead of welcoming the emotions and then releasing them, we don’t progress. This is the biggest block in any journey of personal healing and transformation. Once you choose to begin on your healing journey, the Universe helps you by triggering all your suppressed emotions, through the people or circumstances around you, whether it be therapists, other people in healing groups, family or any frustrations that annoy you when you are trying to nurse your comfort zones. Your transformation and healing will depend on you feeling all your emotions; not fighting with the projections.

 

3)      The Unforgivable 

This is the biggest and final step to making a breakthrough. Healing the unhealable requires us to forgive the unforgivable. We often hold something as unforgivable within ourselves, although to anyone outside ourselves, it wouldn’t seem unforgivable at all.

We tend to push this away and not face it, as if we find something we could never forgive, we would be stuck and totally powerless to move forward.  So as we search ourselves in our healing, we tend to go round in circles, looking at everything except what we really need to see, So we never make the breakthrough, and don’t find the cure.

So what makes us unforgivable? Experience has shown it to be a broken alliance with some part of the self, whether it be our inner child or adolescent, our soul or spirit, or our higher self. It’s that split that stops us from finding forgiveness. As an example, you may have promised as a child that you will never be like your parents, because you hold resentment about how they made you feel. But as they are your most persistent role models, you become like them after all. This split with your inner child is something you can’t forgive. It is further complicated by the fact that if you forgave yourself, you would have to let your parents off the hook. 

To prepare to be able to forgive our darkest secrets, there are 7 principles we need to absorb:

1)      It is human to make mistakes.

2)      We are forgivable for those mistakes. There is nothing that cannot be forgiven.

3)      Sometimes we are prepared, and sometimes we are not.

4)      Our needs and desires have value. They may not be the only needs, and sometimes not the most important needs, but they are not to be neglected.

5)      You can motivate yourself out of your desire to grow. You can grow because you want to; you don’t need problems to force you to grow.

6)      You have the substance already within you to build character.

7)      You are a piece of God/Goddess/All that is, and you can reach for your spirituality.

 

Letting in these principles will prepare you to uncover what you have held as unforgivable. Another helpful tool to uncover this, is to simply ask yourself, what is the most unforgivable act anyone could do? It doesn’t mean you have done that, but you can look at it symbolically. As an example, one person said the most unforgivable thing was to kill a child. It didn’t mean she had killed a child in some past life, but rather she had destroyed innocence, thereby splitting from her inner child. 

Layers of Guilt

Also, be aware that these hidden guilts don’t generally just come out in one go. There are layers. 

The first layer is denial. Don’t fight it; just feel the denial. As it passes, you move on to blame. You blame others, then blame yourself. Either way, it’s still blame, so don’t get stuck there, just feel it, let it go and move on. Then you get to self-pity, then indignation, which includes all the righteous anger about why you shouldn’t have to be dealing with all this. Then you recognise the pattern of shame. At this point you see it isn’t just one event you are forgiving, but a whole sequence of failures, as once you feel flawed, you always fail in the same way. Then, through the process of dis-creation, you can observe the whole pattern and finally let it go. The last step is to allow a new resonance; feel what it’s like to be forgiven. Celebrate your return to self-love. 

If you go through these steps, anything can be healed. This last step is a little complex, so you may want guidance from someone who has learned non-judgement, appreciation and enthusiasm, and has the high energy to carry you through your process. I guide you though this in my online Ultimate Healing Self-Healing course.

Free Public Questions & Answers Zoom Call – Saturday, 1 February 1pm London time

I will be exploring this topic further in my upcoming Q&A call and then answering your questions on this and any other areas of magick, shamanism and particular issues affecting you and your life.

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